I have often participated in ‘short term‘ solutions through my life. If I had too much to eat, I would detox through abstinence from certain food for a period of time, popularly called ‘fasting‘. If I had too much to drink, then I would detox using liver cleansing methods.
I worried about my body, as most people do. I buried my pain, my issues internally. I looked for comfort through over-eating, drinking and dysfunctional company.
Through my current journey, I realised that much of the short-term solution is simply about short-term gain. The cycle of gaining weight or being unwell periodically was simply a symptom of this.
When I looked deep within, I came to a very tough realisation. I had lost contact with my inner-self. I had to find me! When I finally started the dialogue with myself, I found many demons – some born with me, some through me. I realised whatever I was doing was simply an escape from my true self. That’s when I decided to ‘Detox my soul’. (not just my body or my mind).
I am not fashionable; my approach is very simple and humble. No, I did not go to any tantrics, soul cleansing solution providers. All these techniques attempt to support us to look within. I had already made that decision. I chose to do it my way.
I started spending more time with myself, in prayer, in meditation. Issues that were difficult to deal with and I struggled with, instead of putting them away in another compartment somewhere, I started re-living them. It took me to dark places, to places I never want to revisit. I even hated myself at times for causing pain and hurt to those I had loved.
Detoxing your soul is a tough journey. And it is a long journey. It is not something that happens overnight. It is a process. It doesn’t turn you into a saint either. It allows you to be human, a purer human.
What came out of it was beautiful and light. I realised my inner self is truly pure, humble and simple. My authenticity came through my own journey. I still carry hurt and pain of losses. But I don’t hide behind superficial temporary balm, but I deal with it.
I realised when I detoxed my soul, everything else simply started falling in place. It is not a short term solution anymore. It is a lifestyle.